Monday, July 2, 2007

What is God doing in my life?

God has been real faithful in showing me my sin this week. It all started last Saturday when I was helping the staff clean cabins between Family Camps. I chose to clean the toilets! I was really PROUD of my work when I was done cleaning all ten of them. When I finished I was on cloud nine! (I told you that I don't get out much) Well on Wednesday, Ernie told me the things that I cleaned wrong. I was devastated!!! My pride was so wounded. I went home and vowed never to clean another toilet outside my house. Jeff just laughed and encouraged me to go CONQUER those toilets!! I realized then how easy it is for me to just give up when I don't feel appreciated. I have such a fear of man. I want to please everyone, but according to Galatians 1:10, if I fear man then I am not a servant of Christ!! OUCH! The next Saturday, I went out to clean again with the staff. I chose toilets again, I was determined to conquer them. I went to do my job and things were different this time. My boss had changed and her way of doing things did not match what I thought was best. Within 10 minutes, I had spoken rudely to her twice and I left to go home crying. I was a mess. I prayed and prayed my whole way home and back to my job. God showed me my sin of stubbornness. I can be submissive to my authorities when things are going my way, but watch out if they don't!! I also have great difficulty being flexible when things abruptly change. When I returned to the job, I immediately asked my boss to forgive me for my bad attitude. She forgave me and I went to conquer those toilets. I had a great time hearing from the Lord the rest of the day. I am so needy of His direction and discipline. (Just writing this makes me see in print who my children get their bad attitudes from.....ME!!)

2 comments:

Karen said...

You can come clean my toilets any time and I won't complain and will pat you on the back too:) Seriously, it's funny how the little things are the BIGGEST issues!

lisatatj said...

sounds like you are talking about me.... i always feel that i am not teachable...that is what i always call it. I get upset if i did something wrong, cuz i want everyone to think the best of me (fear of man) and i have a bad attitude if i have to be corrected (bad attitude and pride) thanks for being real about yourself and teaching/reminding me in the process....love you tons

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