I am feeling....

like I wish that I could give you all the details, but I really don't know them all!! I know that made no sense, but it is true all the same. What I can tell you is that I took Amy to the doctor today. The doctor took one look at the mole that is by Amy's ear and said, "There are three things that we look at to see if a mole is dangerous." She named the three things and then said, "Amy's mole has ALL THREE!" We talked about what needs to happen next. When I got home I called a dermatologist to get an appointment for Amy. The earliest available appointment was sometime in January!! I told the nurse that we can't wait that long. She told me to have Amy's doctor call and they would see what they could do. She ended by saying that she probably would not be able to get her in before two weeks. Ya all I don't know whether to be scared or excited. After talking to Amy's doctor the nurse called me back to tell me that an appointment has been set up for next Tuesday at 11:45!! I started crying immediately. This mole that I have been watching for months is serious. They will be removing the mole and sending it in to be tested. To make matters worse, Emily and I leave Saturday to go to Phoenix for 10 days. I will not be able to be with my baby during all this. If she needed me I WOULD STAY, but I know that there really isn't anything that I can do here. I would have to wait here, so I might as well wait in Arizona. I know that she will be in the best of hands....God's and her Daddy's!!

Some prayer requests....PLEASE PLEASE pray that this mole has not spread, better yet pray that it is nothing!!! Pray that the doctor gets it all. Pray that Amy will heal quickly. Pray that Amy will see her need for a Savior. Last if you would please pray that I can actually enjoy my time away. I am bawling while I type this...I SO want to go, but I feel guilty for leaving.